kay/matsu

i.must.be.crazy!!

2012-02-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

yep, juz posted something REALLY crazy on fb~~
and to most, it would seems like a joke, but actually, i'm quite serious about it..

kinda need to earn xtra cash for april's trip for family holiday~~
and, being the lowest paid in the family, i have to pay my own share for the tix and etc etc, so, i've to find some other ways to earn tat Xtra $$~~

dun think i would have any reply on tat, damn!
will try to think of something else in the meantime...

Gore-rified my valentine

2012-02-14T19:11:00.001+08:00

Paint those blood roses black, for crimson it may be, it does not convey how dark love might be...

Pick some stars off the violet sky, engrave it deep into skin if both U and I, for it is said nothing last forever, at least now, it'll last as long as we do...

Pave the path with petals and thorns, bare feet, we shall walk down tat very path, leaving behind our bloody foot prints, fade in time it will, at least those scars we bare remains...

Forever remembered~

2012-02-13T23:42:00.001+08:00

The music industry recently lost 2 really great female voices, one is Whitney Houston, another is hat songstress, 凤飞飞 (Feng Fei Fei)....
Both songstress, extremely talented, yet their death...sigh...

Anyways, I'm kinda still down wif fever, so not gonna to too long winded..

Mayb I'll blog about how my V day went tml nite~

Edited pics~

2012-02-11T00:54:00.001+08:00

Yep~
Edited 2 of my pic frm thur's photoshoot~~ ^^

2012-02-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

i wonder how would yesterday's photoshoot's pics turn out?
it was many many 1st time all piled into just one day!!

my 1st time to Santosa wif frens (my very 1st and only time there was wif my sch more than 10 years back)
1st time exploring almost the entire Fort Siloso!!!
1st time boarding Trams, 1st time to panawan beach (think tat's how to spell it's name, the one where Tanjong Beach Club is located), 1st beach shoot, 1st bikini shoot, 1st nite shoot IN the pool~~
1st time being so-called "lead model", 1st time having ppl helping me wif my stuff quite alot (almost more than 90% of the time i dun have to carry/drag my heavy over-packed luggage =p)
and 1st time i've a ride back home after a whole day of tiring shoot~~ ^^

Tired!!!!!

2012-02-10T13:14:00.001+08:00

Yea, body felt like i've done some serious exercising during yesterday's shoot!!!
Was really fun, and we shot out of theme halfway through the shoot~~
And did some nite swimming at TBC, located somewhere near panawan beach I believe....
Here are very few teasers I on how it was like~

addicted!!

2012-02-08T13:24:00.000+08:00

new found addiction = PHOTOSHOOT!!!

doin gothic theme shoot again tml!! (somehow, all prev gothic theme didn't turn out well. Hope tml's shoot, wif the help of some background music, will be the best so far~)

and might have another shoot end of this mth..HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAAAA

my depressant = work, my anti-depressant = photoshoot+hanging out wif frens!!!!

2012-02-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

photos frm my private shoot sometime back (the hotel shoot)
so far only these 2 photos are out, the rest, the photog is still editing them~~
might be planning another similar shoot, tat depends on when the photos is free again~

2012-02-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

weeeeeee~~
done the speed test thingy for my office's network~

and this is the result~
(i dun game, juz fb and work stuff, so i guess it's kinda more than enough~)

恐い、ジブの気持ちいが恐いよ…

2012-02-04T23:19:00.001+08:00

I'm kinda starting to miss someone, but can't admit it...on one side, I do not wish either of us to become a rebound for another...and the other reason would be, someone of his status, a nobody like me, will never ever catch his eye...

Lols~
Anyways, goin for check comin thur, 9 feb, hoping to find out if there's anything wrong wif me...

am i cursed??

2012-02-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i think i'm cursed..
when i work in a place for Almost 1 full year, i'll get sick, really sick, BUT not sick enough to be hospitalized or something..juz ill enough to annoy the hell outta myself

1/2/12, the day 2 became 1

2012-02-02T20:31:00.001+08:00

Sure as the rising sun,
May their days be filled wif bliss.
Sure as the stars in the nite sky,
May their nites be blessed wif peace.
May happiness be upon them always, juz as heaven is always there above.

2012-01-31T19:27:00.001+08:00

Wad I'll be wearing tml for my cousin's engagement dinner and the shoot I have b4 tat~ ^^

1.5 lap....zzzzzz

2012-01-31T10:20:00.000+08:00

yesh, only manage to swim 1.5 lap this morning!!!!
omg....and i was there for like 25min!!!! if not for the bunch of students coming in for their swimming lesson, think i could have completed my 5 laps b4 coming out....and, 25min there, with no strong sunlight (i was lucky it was cloudy this morning), i manage to tan myself to a obvious greyish skintone *again*...
and incase u are wondering, ppl turn dark, not grey, after tanning, well, i dunno as well, but my skintone is not found in any beauty product~ and it really is grey-ish, not common for asian ppl....(it appears that in the western continent, there IS such a thing called a "grey undertone" for skintone, but not in asia....)

ok, gonna finish my paperwork, than go buy fabric, elastic strip, and i think tat's all~~
so bye~ ^^

Fashion design templates!!!

2012-01-30T22:19:00.001+08:00

Lols~
Finally printed those templates out~~

And I shall have fun wif them during my leave tml!!!!!

Muahhahahahahahahahaaaaa~~~

2012-01-29T20:02:00.001+08:00

にゃ!!
I'm so bored I'm watching tv now!!!!
And b4 this, was watching criminal minds on YouTube hole afternoon~

厭だ‼ 呑みが厭だ!!!!!

2012-01-27T12:44:00.001+08:00

I DON'T WANNA DRINK THE COUGH SYRUP!!!!!
Omg, soooooo ewwwwwwwww....

Looking forward!!!!!!

2012-01-26T01:26:00.001+08:00

I am soooo looking forward to the photos of my private shoot!!!!! Omg omg~~~

And was chilling wif my dear Lao San at waterfront till midnite~

お休み💤 *･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*

2012-01-25T19:21:00.000+08:00

gonna re-edit photos, and repost!!!!!
gawd, y is it sooooo damn hard to arrange the photos here!??!?!??

and it seems to be even harder to get ppl to teach me some of the simplest tricks they know...it's not like i'mma totally steal their way of arranging and posting photos on blogs, i juz DO NOT like to have such a big space in between my photos, which is taking up wayyyyyy tooooooooooooooooo much space!!!!!!!!

damn~

食べた物の写真集

2012-01-25T00:13:00.005+08:00

Food photography!! Frm my iPhone 3GS, and edited a little using those free apps~

新年快了！！！！

2012-01-24T00:11:00.001+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!!!!!!!
Here are some photos of my CNY clothes and wad me and my family ate for the CNY day1 ~~~
And FYI, all those food are for 3 person only, and yes, we have enough leftovers to cook for day2, and mayb enough for even day3~~ xp

21/01/2012 private shoot~~~

2012-01-22T03:50:00.001+08:00

Camwhore pics, scenes outside the hotel room, and random pic of my dinner and the bathtub~

Only few selected photos frm the shoot will be posted out, the rest, well, private~~~~~

Wedding gift~

2012-01-20T22:35:00.001+08:00

For my cousin who's getting engaged on 1 Feb~~~

Everything's a lie

2012-01-20T18:51:00.001+08:00

Yes.....
Every damn thing is nothing but a big fat lie!!!!!!

Every single time, I tell myself not p trust ppl too much, and after hanging out for some time, I forget about tat and ended up trusting and believing others too much..
Yea...it's always the case....
If dum wanna meet, dun wanna accompany me, than dont!! Never did I force anyone to entertain me if it's against their will...
And a new fact for a new year, and this year's fact is, I'm the LEAST important thing in ppl's life~ deal wif it!!

2012-01-17T20:32:00.001+08:00

Wow~

Was asking ard see which of the photogs I noe willing to do wedding photography for free, or, for a low cost at least, as I wanted to engage one for my cousin's engagement dinner..

It's a very small function, wif ard 40 close family and frens only...so I'm not sure if they have hired their own photogs, so was planing it as one of those small lil thingy I can do for them...

Was kinda surprised tat one of them called me up after I SMS him~

Well, he did asked me to go out wif him once, but tat was when we hardly knew each other..and there have been some who have told me to give him a chance and see how it goes...

Well...not so sure about tat...cuz well, tat was like quite sometime back..and I believe he wasn't really serious about tat..but if he were to bring it up again, I might, Might, consider giving it a shot..only if I know tat he's serious and stable...I do not want to get involved wif 'boys', guys who are not mature enough, regardless of age..

As the saying goes, "shun qi zi ran"
Go wif the flow, let nature take it's course~

Photoshoot!!!!

2012-01-14T18:19:00.001+08:00

Yeah, can't wait for my shoot on 21st!!!!!!
An I hope the photog can stop asking me Qus as in wad I can take and was I can't when I've told him all there is for him to know!!!!!

Seriously, keep asking me those same Qus, I'm gonna tell him I'm not gonna shoot anymore!!!!

I'm feeling terrible being sick, would really appreciate tat he register was I've told him into his head!!!
I don't do nude means no nude, not at all!!! Which part of tat does he not understand!!!!!
PLS, stop trying to get me to do a nude shoot, I've already decided who is the photog who's gonna be taking my nude shoot if I'm ever gonna have one...so yea...

Stop stalking my blog, u're not welcome here

2012-01-11T18:28:00.001+08:00

To the VIET idiot who played me for a fool....

STOP STALKING MY BLOG !!!!!!!!

U want nothing to do wif me anymore, and have been showing me attitude in the office..so was brings u here to my blog?? To see if I've been missing u, sobbing in my blog, crying like a baby bcuz u left?? Or to see if I'm been spreading rumours about u???

Be it which Eva I'm doin, it shouldn't be any of ur business rite?

So yea.....STAY AWAY!!!!!!

Yea, I WAS right after all......

2012-01-10T20:10:00.001+08:00

Lols~
Someone forgot to log out his fb!!!!
Went to stalk his fb 1 last time, guess wad ? I was right!!!!!!!

He have been mentioning this person name "mun" since he was flinging wif me...

So the whole 'he owes ppl huge sum of money, I found out, he got pissed off, removed me frm his contacts and fb, act like a total victim says tat I'm the one ignoring him and bullying him' it's all juz an act juz so that he can win tat "mun" gal's heart... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

How worst off and how low can a guy get?!??!??!

Even till now, in front of my frens, he still acts like he's the victim all along.......=____=

At least he gets to work frm home now = I dun have to see his face!!!!!

And soon, I'm not gonna trust guys anymore...casual frens, anything more, noway!!! So far, MOST guys I've met and known are lowlife arseholes who takes advantage of other~ (and yeah, tat includes my dad, who isn't ard anymore, dead or alive, idk and idx anyway)

2012-01-09T20:45:00.001+08:00

Sigh....
Some ppl are juz plain annoying!!!!!
Putting words into my mouth, bossing me ard..

Damn it lah

Outing on 7/1/2012

2012-01-08T02:20:00.001+08:00

Yeah~~~
Food pic is frm sashimi buffet frm koi!!
Got lots more, but after these, I've stopped taking pic, too buzzy enjoying the food, forgotten to take photo or the rest of the food~ xp

Ghost in the Shell - i do

2012-01-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

i do~~ ^^

2012-01-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

hmmmm

juz a random confession~~
i dun get addicted to alcohol and smoking (shisha included), cuz i'm addicted to a much more potent poison!!!! my addiction is affections (of the right kind)!!!! i guess it's due to wad i've been through in the past, now i'm becoming more and more 'weird'...or rather...hmmm how do i explain this in words...

it's like mood swings of a totally diff kind..normally i dun cry, but something when i watch tv, it dun even need to be a touching scene, i'll cry!!! and at times, i'm so lazy to the extend whereby even breathing also lazy to breath...and also...i seems to be getting more and more extereme, more than usual...

hmmmmm...shall try to figure myself out once again...hang out wif peeps who studied psychology..and mayb read up more on related topic..

oh ya~
one more thing~~

I HATE PPL WHO JUDGE ME!!! JUZ BCUZ I HAVE UNPLEASENT PAST, IT DO NOT MEAN ANYONE HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOOK DOWN ON ME!!!

Awesome toilet!!!

2012-01-04T00:51:00.001+08:00

I SUPER like this kinda feel!!! And it's a toilet!!!!!!!!! LOLS!!!

My messy work desk!!!

2012-01-03T20:33:00.001+08:00

YES!!!!! I work in such environment!!! Cuz no place to put stuff, and when I work, I like things to be within my teach(and yes I admit to being super lazy as well)~~~

2012-01-02T15:07:00.001+08:00

Sigh...seriously...ppl need not say sorry and explain to me things which I've already know.....

The year is simply getting off Obama bad to worst kinda start..1st was made to feel all useless and outcast after NYE shoot, than I got nag by my mom..now, someone let me know tat I was the least important....

When I go work tml, I'm preparing yield for other bad things to happen...

2012-01-02T12:02:00.001+08:00

Xmas tree and stuff which was on it~~~~
In the process if taking down the deco(s) in it~~~~

2012-01-01T23:38:00.001+08:00

Think I'm getting out of touch frm the world...all those ppl ard me are great in art..have supportive family..and most come frm either average or above average income household...

For tat very reason, the younger gen, part of them, have the habit of looking down at others...have already decided to cosplay for shoots only, as the politics in the community is really too much...people who do not photoshop their photos to perfection are considered as outcast...but ppl who are fat, and have an attitude, but photoshop heir photos to look like they have the figure of a model, those ppl are more than welcome!!

Seriously was has the world become??

Teasers frm NYE shoot!!!

2012-01-01T15:11:00.001+08:00

Photos frm the punk goth shoot I had on 31 dec 2011~~ it was actually punk rock goth, but, since no one wore anything which feels like 'rock' so it became punk goth instead~~~~~

Star Wars Meets Metal

2011-12-29T12:31:00.000+08:00

if u like metal, do check this guy out!! he's awsome!!

[Vocaloid/Miku Hatsune, Luka Megurine, Megpoid/GUMI] Hyakki Yakou by Noazi

2011-12-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

nice~~~~

Photos frm baby's Xmas cum Bday chalet!!!

2011-12-26T09:15:00.001+08:00

Yep yep~~~
There's photo of joy's Xmas gift for me~ (the blur blur photo of the ring)
Cookies baked by baby~~
My trimmed hair~~ and a shot b4 went morning swim~~ ^,~

2011-12-24T13:01:00.001+08:00

Tempted to write a short story *again*.....but, the story I have in mind would be so much better if it were to be a manga instead....

2011-12-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

And here are some pic I took wif my frens during today's outing wif joy and Arella~~~

Flood in town in 23 Dec 11

2011-12-24T00:22:00.001+08:00

Was in a cab when I took these photos~~~
And yep~~ it's flooding again~!

2011-12-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

stuff to be done, DONE!!!
stuff to be updated which is in the email, *pretend not to see anything*

yep~
even though my boss told me something this morning, think he's trying to say wad eva i'm suppose to do, juz do for her, even if she dun like it, at least i've done my job..BUT, sorry boss, tat WAS me, but not anymore..being picky is one thing, setting me up is another..thus, i'm gonna do her stuff ONLY when i feel like it, cuz which eva way, she's gonna make a big fuss and say i didn't do my job, y force myself to keep up to her rite~ ^^

2011-12-22T11:49:00.001+08:00

hmmm..i believe i've said it many time, "if u like me, let me know" !!!!
wad's the use of being a baby now, and doing evey single freaking thing juz to pissed me off, for something which isn't totally my fault????

damn!!!
STOP SINGING WHILE LISTENING TO SONG ON EAR PHONE!!!!!!
even pro singers dun sound gd when both their ear is plugged in when the earphone....=.=

2011-12-22T11:41:00.000+08:00

my fren Brendan, posted this on his wall, and it's juz awsome!!!!
i laughed dispite being in a foul mood, so, it's definatly share-worthy!!!

" The gaga theory:

2(RAH)+3(AH)+ RO( MA+MAMA)+GAGA+OOH(LA)2

= bad romance "

LOLS!!!!!!!

Headache headache

2011-12-22T01:52:00.001+08:00

A plain headache would be a under statement to was I'm feeling rite now....let's juz say the pain is causing me to become more and more light sensitive and sound sensitive.....and, well, let's juz say it ain't doing my mood any good.....

2011-12-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

there's a chance tat my mental state isn't very stable today...
now, when i still can somehow control my actions, i wanna rant here (and hopefully after ranting i'll feel better)

last nite, mayb i should start wif yesterday morning..got an email frm my boss's partner..telling me to do my job in following up wif her client, to call and check which day she's goin for the checkup...WHEN the prev time i called, her client don't een know which day she'll be able to go, it depends on which morning she have lesser things to do in the office...and she will let her advisor (my boss's partner) when she's goin for the checkup..which means, it'll simply be annoying for me to keep calling her bugging her the same Qus rite??

last nite, she sms me, saying the Giro forms CANNOT USE correction tape or liquid, simply, DO NOT make any mistakes on the Giro forms.....
tat sms was enough to make me wake up in a super foul mood...and when tat idiot who's working in the same office as me comes into the office...*BOOM*..feel like killing ppl!!!!!!
he likes to throw his stuff when he reaches the office..ok, lets say he didn't throw, but put it down LOUDLY....and he plays his songs even louder!!! (his volume is almost 2-3 times of wad i have on my computer)....when i'm pissed, i tend to perfer soft, low volume (unless i'm at my very own home, i'll blast music WITH earphones, it makes the vol seems even louder).....so now..i am sooo tempted to walk out of the freaking office...even more so since the new gal is not coming for work today..so i dont have to wait for her to come in any more..

damn!!!! not feeling any better....feel lioke goin home pop my ALEVE pills!!!!!

2011-12-20T12:58:00.000+08:00

as if ppl thinks i don'd know tat i'm a failure already, i have to have them make me feel even more so almost every single day?? Wow~ thx strangers-whom-i-am-not-really-close-wif-who-don't-know-any-shit-about-me....damn....

this job is really getting really depressing....in the past, i like to stay till very late than i go back home, will come office even on sat to do some paper work..now, i dun even wanna come!!! i've to drag my ass out frm the bed and drag my feet to get to work Every.Single.Day.....

it all started sfter i agreed to help boss's partner out, and now, i cannot ask her to find another person, while still remaining behinde to work for my boss...
sigh....

yea rite, if i dun do my job, i wont bother calling any of her clients, those who last min cancel appointment, she wont even know, she'll make wasted trip to location, only to find out her client got something on and wont be turning up....

damn this job now...it's really getting me down more and more wif each passing day....who can i talk to?
nah~ ppl have their own problems~ so, i'm complaining about how life sucks here~~ ^^

now, it's like everyday of work, i'm having diarrhoea, when i'm not working, i'm fine!!
wonder wad this means....

Photo editing fun!!!

2011-12-18T18:26:00.001+08:00

Another pic which I edited~~~~~lols~~

Photo editing fun!!!!

2011-12-18T18:23:00.001+08:00

Title and photos says it all!!!!!!

2011-12-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

camwhore photos!!!!!!!!!

since i've got nothing better to do ( not tat i do not have things to do at work, juz tat no mood to work)

so it's time to blog..and since i do not wish to rant here ( my head's already bursting, dun wanna really burst my brains out by being too pissed)

and thus~ here's my shameless camwhore photos for today..

not in a gd mood still, so i shall end it here, b4 i start all my ranting shit..

6 Scaretale - Nightwish (Imaginaerum)

2011-12-15T19:25:00.000+08:00

this is my "Song of the Day"!!!! it has been on repeat mode since this morning!!

2011-12-14T18:03:00.000+08:00

lalalallallalalaaaa~~
omg, dunno y but i keep thinking tat EOY (End Of Year cosplay event) is this sun!!!!
IT"S SAT!!!!! lols~
i can save my $$~~ since i've got no time to head down to town to buy the top for the 'something something' i wanna do for eoy~~

well, waiting for tailor to reply my email..or mayb i should sms her, say i wanna tailor 2 dress, and have emailed her the pic of the dress i wan??

hmmm, think by tml morning no reply, i'll sms her, so tat she can check her email~ ^^

2011-12-14T11:50:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....i should go for check up soon as well.....but b4 tat, settle my medical insurance 1st..
need to enhance my mom's medical as well....

sigh~

2011-12-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

weee~~
boss and his partner re-adjusted my job scope~~
even though my pay will be lesser now, but hey~ better than being crushed and having to resign and be jobless (wif no income) while looking for another job, rite?

anyways~ ran out of things to wear for work..so i'm wearing leggings, a skirt i haven't worn for god knows how long, tube and jacket..and i'm regreting wearing tube now..=.=
should've dig for some other top, cuz, tube's kinda slipping lower and lower.....damn!!!
lucky i'm wewaring the over sized jacket over it~~ ^^

2011-12-12T14:12:00.002+08:00

looking awful at work today~~!!!!!

2011-12-10T22:55:00.001+08:00

Weeeee~~ blogging using iPhone~~!!! Lols~~~ wondering if my flu will be totally recovered by tml?

2011-12-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday not feeling so gd..after lunch, rain...so walked back to office under the rain, cuz it was for a very short distance only~~

this morning wake up.. ..felt worst...=.=
head felt like it's being stuffed into the feet/leg massage thingy..running nose, so have to keep 'sniffing'..and the random itch which made u go "AHCHUU" no matter where u are..
and i'm still in the office..lols~
yea, working for half day, later go see doc..this time really need flu meds tat works!! so i'm goin the doc at causeway pt, yep~ raffles medical!!! hope their flu meds works better than their pain killers~..

2011-12-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

......boss gave me his iphone 3G this morning... ... ...having slight problems using smart phones!!!
seriously...noob like me should stick to normal phones..those even if u dropped, your heart wont ache so much kinda phone....

lucky gonna meet lao san later~~ ^^
she's gonna help me out wif tat phone~~ xDDDD

The Noose: Christmas music video

2011-12-08T16:05:00.000+08:00

LOLS!!! here's an early season greetings to everyone~~ xDDDDD

2011-12-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

not sure wad's goin on wif my body these days..this morning, everything seems to be grey-ish..and shoulder aching came soon after....
mayb it's the weather tat's too cold...

2011-12-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

I DONT FEEL LIKE WORKING TODAY!!!!!
yea, juz by reading these post on my blog, should be able to tell tat i'm spamming, instead of working..

2011-12-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

stomach not feeling well almost every single day..and it seems tat the cause of it is my job..
yep~ my job!! when eva i get sick of the things i do, my stomach reacts this way..and if i'm still working in the environment, dizziness and nausea will soon follow~

gd job~ 9mth into this 1st office job, i'm getting job/work burnout~
but, if i hadn't agree to help out my boss's partner, the burnout might kick in much later..i'm still trying to stick ard till i've worked here for 1 full year, BUT, it's really getting depressing every single morning when i noe i gotta get my ass to work..soon, depression will start kicking in..oh wait, think it already has...=.=

but than again, ppl say when u noe u're suffering frm depression, it's means u're not..and tat when u think u need to seek help, u dont..since i'm at a stage whereby i think my depression is comming back and that this time round, i might need professional help.. .. ..dose tat means i'm perfectly normal, unless i succeeded in killing myself, and after i'm dead, i can seek help??

anyways, even if i really need professional help, and even need to be on medication, I WONT HAVE THE $$ FOR ALL THOSE!!!! mental issues are so so soooo much more expensive than those flu and fever..and it seems tat consultation starts right frm hundreds of dollars......i might as well spend those $$ on spa to chill and relax, which might help me feel better as well..

i can spot the main problem i'm having now, it's i feel no purpose in ANYTHING i do..and everything seems kinda meaningless..and the reason for needing help is, i can't seems to convince myself that all those things i'm thinking ain't true..tried debating wif myself..but it seems somehow, the negative side always wins?

i dunno how the hell i manage to talk myself out frm depression in the past, it seems tat those 'reasons' used in the past, was proven to not exsist..meaning life has proven me wrong, and i can't use those logics now as they no longer are valid...

so, guess it's juz me, myself, and the dark side of life..again...

2011-12-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

this is for my boss's A-list VVVVVVIP client~~

lucky my warpping skill is more or less still there~ ^^

2011-12-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

well well..suppose to rant here yesterday about how my 'bday supper' went..but than again, since i don't have the time to rant about it yesterday, neither do i have the time to rant about today, so, i'll juz leave it be..

AND, suppose to be ranting about work, but same thing, don't really have tat much time to rant..

so in short, all i can say is, once again, ppl have to make me angry and pissed off and make me shout at ppl on my bday..but thos yr, i didn't shout at ppl, i juz curse and swear to the air..
and work wise, simple 2 words says it all.. ..IT SUCKS..period..

2011-12-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

all diy-ed, and all are selling!!!!
and once i figure out how the hell to organise the pics, i'll rearrange it...

so juz bare wif this nonsense for abit~ ;p

2011-11-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

weeee~~
i'm goin off~~~
but not to go home and slack....leaving office soon to go collect some stuff frm a client..hahaha~
hope i wont get lost, tat area seems totally unfamiliar to me....

boss asked me to go try out the 'ba kut teh' somewhere ard the area i'm goin..says it SUPER famous, and the best time to eat is ard 6.30-7.30pm~~ (he really dun behaves like a boss sometimes~!! xDDD)

anyways~
juz gonna slack off for few more min~~ ^^

2011-11-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

...
i dreamt tat i was eating sweets and candies none stop... ...=.=
WTH!?!?!!?
since when did i like to eat sweet stuff tat much?? best part was, when i woke up, i tot i really had a candy inside my mouth...damn u dreams which felt soooo real!!!

anyways~ gotta get to work le~~
still have tonnes of stuff to complete by end of this mth!! oh wait, TODAY IS THE 2nd LAS DAY OF THE MTH!!!!
ok, no blogging for me tml, other than juz posting pic, no words!!! i type very slow, so the time i take to blog is about twice the time compared to other ppl~~
bye~~~~

2011-11-28T16:12:00.002+08:00

CAMWHORE PIC FOR THE DAY~~~
(SORRY FOR THE CAPS, HAVE TO USE THEM FOR MY WORK, AND I'M LAZY TO TURN IT OFF~~ XDDDDD)

cute bear bear face ring!!!!! made it myself~~ ^^

2011-11-28T15:37:00.000+08:00

我以后统统不管了！

2011-11-28T11:52:00.000+08:00

sigh~
go dating must show off??
pfft~

childish much..idoitic much..

2011-11-25T11:56:00.001+08:00

weeee~~
today on leave again~!!!

cuz ppl frm philip finally wanna come look at the sound bar le~~
and since my bro and mom cant take leave, so i became the one who's gonna take leave and stay home wait for them~~
and, since philip ppl are coming in the early afternoon, i came back office early in the morning to do some stuff, and, gotta go~

dun wan those ppl to have excuess saying they went my house but there was no one ard...=.=
BYE~!!

troll yeah~

2011-11-25T11:04:00.002+08:00

2011-11-24T15:40:00.000+08:00

wee~~

yea, i'm bored, so i've decided to post camwhore pics instead~ xDDDD

2011-11-23T18:15:00.000+08:00

both sleeves up!!!!!
and i'm trying to keep it as raw as possible, so as to enable multiple styles of wearing it~~ ^^

2011-11-22T20:02:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm
he still haven't talk to me juz now.. ..mayb he dun bother to read my blog anymore..
BUT! i sms him tat the door changed password already, he didn;t even reply me a 'noted' or 'ok'... ... ...

mayb i should continue bombard myself wif how irritating he is, his flaws.. . ...hmmm....or even better yet, i need something to keep my mine off him~
YESH!! things other than work~~ ^^ but.. .. ...i still see him every wkday in the office...=.=
oh well~ i can get through somehow~~
juz keep telling myself he's not worth my time, yesh, find other ppl who are worthy of my time now~~
wad's past is past, he may be super caring and sweet in the past, but ya, past is past...

2011-11-22T13:32:00.000+08:00

making in progress!!!!!
the other sleeves not up yet, Obi belt not done yet, and some details not in yet as well.....

AND this is only the top, i wonder if i'll have enough time/cloth to finish the pants as well?? hmmmmmm

drop collar at the back~~ ^^
(wad's a kimono/yukata inspired design w/o the awsome drop collar?? xDDD)

2011-11-22T11:13:00.001+08:00

note how tat guy changes when i say it's either he return or he wont return the $$
he has used the same old trick far too many time, when he say he'll return, will try to return, i gave him chance and time, end result, not even a single cent back..

so this time round, i'm gonna stand firm on my ground, and my guess is tat high chance he's up the the same old trick again..

since the Sg Police Force refuse to help me pursue the matter, (reason being the amount stolen was $1040 ONLY for them), i've to find some other ways to get my $$ back...

my fren's boss made a report on her sotlen patty cash, amount was also over 1000 but below 2000, and guess wad, it has been almost 1 yr or more, she's still pursuing the matter, as the police haven't even printed out a report for her...=.=

times like this, i hate sg to the core...the gov, it seems the ppl means nothing at all if they can't give them much things in return....zzzzzz

2011-11-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

kinda wanna say "i'm sorry"

kinda wanna ask y is he so pissed off at me?

kinda wanna talk to him..

kinda wondering if he'll read this??

ps: if u are reading this, pls tell me y are u so angry at me..unless u really want nothing at all to do wif me..

2011-11-21T15:30:00.002+08:00

STONE LIKE A ROCK STAR!!!!!!!

2011-11-21T13:02:00.003+08:00

*stone*
... ... ... ... ...

hmmm..oh ya, i remembered!!! i've to go the other office make calls now....zzzzz
damn bored lah~ =.=

2011-11-21T11:35:00.000+08:00

bday comming in like 2 weeks time..frens have been asking if i have any plans for my bday...
frankly speaking, i dunno.....might have shoot on the day itself, and might be goin to have some shanghai food for supper with owner and cat partner~~
and think boss is planning to bring me go eat, dunno is it b4 or after, and my only wish is, that baka will go too!!! yea, even though he's still not talkng to me, i still wan him to go, i dun even noe y!! it's like, there might be some awkward feeling if he go, but if he dun, i'll not be happy....=.=

sigh~

2011-11-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzzz

WTF!!!!!! omg lah.....last nite dreamt of him again.....zzzzzzzzz
how many times does he have to come into my dreams?!?

sigh~
1st thing in the morning woke up, spend few min figuring out if it's really juz a deam~

2011-11-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

heaven's gate wont open

neither will the path to hell show
noone's waiting with their arms open

i can only wait for this desert to snow

gods are watching, angels are listening

so are satans and devils

but all they do is just to enjoy the show

they watch us just as we watch our actors act

people see, people hear

but do anyone knows what is it that they see or hear

or are they just like everything else

where everything around is just an interactive movie

they are the main character and nothing else matters

if so, than i must be the passerby in every movie

never mattered, never stayed

never would anyone even noticed

even if i were to disappear one fine day

noone would notice, noone would care
noone would bother cuz noone knows

i shall fade into the world which has quietly waited

for me to return to it's embrace once more

where no masks are needed

no hypocritsy requried

there i shall be

returning to the state which i should've been

to the place of all beginning

this is something i wrote quite sometime back..forgotten when, but ya..i miss writting...writing emo stuff, writting my feelings out....it seems i've been busy till i've only been ranting none stop!!

anyways~
juz done cleaning up the office~~ gonna change the bedsheets when i get home~ so everything is new~~
than those stupid virus can stop bugging me, than i can focus~!! ^^

2011-11-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

dec coming soon.. .. ..sigh.....
now i wanna hide one corner emo, but it seems many ppl planning something up in their sleaves...
juz hope it's a gd one and i dun end up letting ppl down by suddenly emo-ing..

また、お前か猫じゃらし！byカオリン"

2011-11-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! KAWAIIIII~~~~~~~~

2011-11-17T13:28:00.002+08:00

meow!!!!
i juz spoke to tokiwa-san!!!!!
WAAAAAAAA~~~~

lols~
he's my boss's client, heheheeee~~ a japanese!!!!!! damn~ should've study hard when tat prev desktop haven't spoilt, the japanese software inside!!!!

nya~~~ gonna call eiji-san later~~
still wondering it is ei-ji, or ei-ni...=.=

2011-11-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

how great it would be if only i didn't noticed tat i liked him...than everything would be as normal...and we would still remain as frens (i guess)...simply hate myself....always liking someone who treats me juz as a fren....and always ends up.. ..like this....sigh~

2011-11-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

is it sooo hard for him to talk to me 1st??
a fren asked me, do i still treasure the friendship between me and him, guess wad, told him if i dun, y would i be complaining about this and tat??
my style is simple, ppl wanna have cold war wif me, i can ignore them for the rest of my life for all i care~ i won't bother to notice wth tat person is doining or wadsoeva..
but i told tat fren as well, it's not up to me, for he's the one wanting to cut all ties wif me now, not me..than my fren asked, how do i know tat's true? it could all be my assumptions only...well, i agree wif tat as well..but the way i am now, how to confront sia?? i'm at my weakest rite now...if he were to like ask me "are u feeling better?" or something like tat, i'll more or less try to make things back to normal again...
and here comes another group of frens who simply tells me to forget about him..there're many other guys out there, many other ppl for me to make frens wif, y bother wif someone who dun treasure me... =.=

sigh~
tat's y i hate humans....so freaking hard to know wad's on their mind!!!!!

Ryuichi Sakamoto - Chinsagu No Hana

2011-11-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

i like~~ ^^

2011-11-16T15:18:00.000+08:00

how can someone be so kinda and sweet, become a coldhearted idiot now??
sigh~

i should go for some checkup real soon, head hurts, dizzy, no appitite, breathlessness....but doc says i'm fine...=.=
mayb there's something wrong wif my heart and brain itself, since BP and lung seems fine to doc

Ryuichi Sakamoto - Solitude

2011-11-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Christmas Mr.Lawrencce (Live at NYC)

2011-11-16T13:21:00.000+08:00

a fren recomended this to me juz now~
it's nice!!!!!!!!
omg, i loved this song for very very long, but didn't know the title!!!

2011-11-16T11:27:00.000+08:00

new updates!!

我真的病得不轻啊！！！！

讨厌啦，又病到会发斗和没力气。就连把手抬高一点的力气都没了。。。=-=
真是要命喔！！到了晚上，累了却又睡不下。。。一早起来又什没都不想做。。。

【初音ミク】夜色、ひとひら【オリジナル曲】

2011-11-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

【初音ミク】雨色花火【ベルPオリジナル】

2011-11-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

2011-11-15T17:08:00.000+08:00

brain is still not working!!!
....and tml my boss gonna test me on new stuff...=.=
golden brain my foot!! if i've golden brain, than all other ppl out there have diamond and platinium brain already~

the only equal thing about my brain is not tat i use all parts equally, should be all parts of my brain are equally dead~

2011-11-15T15:19:00.000+08:00

seems like he's sick as well..been hearing him coughing since juz now..
hmmm..

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